I’ve been trying to write this post for a very long time now but something would always overcome me and in the end, I wouldn’t actually end up publishing it. However today is different.
As you can tell by the title, yes I’m quitting blogging and I don’t know what I’m going to do. There are a multitude of reasons why I’m quitting but the one that’s done the biggest number on me was that in early April, someone I thought I’d trusted from school told my sister I had social media accounts while she was serving him on a day where my sister was working. This resulted in my snake of a sister telling my mum which led to her finding out about this blog and the name I go under and ever since then I’ve felt totally unable to blog. I initially blamed it on writer’s block and whatnot but it turns out that it was more of a paralysis. Where all the reasons why cumulated to put me into a condition where I thought of nothing but quitting.
Another reason is the community. Now I know what all of you are thinking; you were basically super well known as a blogger and have many friends in the blogging world. That is a fair assumption because I’ve made a few friends from this. But at the same time, I’ve made an enemy of and fallen out with just as many if not more bloggers that I’m friends with right now. Even those who think they’re my friends and think that I like them, are people I feel myself holding a grudge against. This platform has a lot of of easily triggered, self important people who are simply snakes and I see straight through them and so should others.
I could just dedicate this blog to exposing every single blogger I have a problem with and personally attacking each of them but what would that achieve? There is little to no point is going round hating on people and vocalising it to the world. Putting hate out there will only attract even more hate into my life and I don’t want that. If you’re gonna do it then keep it private and tell the people who can actually be trusted.
I don’t know what I’m gonna do now that I’m leaving blogging. I mean, I’ll still be around on twitter and everything but I just won’t be writing on this website anymore. Some of you are probably sad, some of you probably don’t care but what I know is that I’m tired of all this. I need some time to just get some space and to evaluate my next move.
Thank you WordPress for everything you’ve done for me. But my time using this platform is done and has been done for a long time.
I just needed to come to terms with the reality.