Whaddup Lions and welcome to a storytime post. Yesterday I went to my first party and I have a story from there that I’d like to tell because I’ve been a horrible person.
So the party started well, I was talking to people and I knew the vast majority of the people there through NCS so I kinda had it easy. We had pizza and I was really happy at the time because I felt like a proper teenager, having fun with my friends while eating pizza and stuff. I conquered my fear of alcohol which has crippled me for a very long time. I can now pick up an open bottle and not feel a thing. However as everyone slowly began to get drunk it began to go downhill.
I was one of the only sober people there and so I was supporting all of the drunks basically. One of my friends who I’ll call Mary was drunk had said these exact words when sober “I’m a flirty drunk so if I kiss you, then I’m sorry”. So I’ve never been around a drunk person in my life so I had no idea what to expect. I was stupid to think that she was joking because I didn’t really take that warning seriously.
While I was helping Mary stand, she spontaneously kissed me on the cheek and took me by surprise and so I was like “okay that was unexpected, just try not to let that happen again. So I basically just watched people be drunk which was kinda funny if I’m honest and so then everyone started playing spin the bottle.
Because I already have a girlfriend, I chose to not play initially out of faithfulness and I simply watched the game. Then the host was playing and her boyfriend also joined in later so this made me begin to tell myself that it was okay to play. However I still didn’t play because I knew full well what I was doing and my inhibitions were all in check so I had no excuse for kissing another person and so I stood there.
I then decided around ten to call my dad to see if he was able to pick me up because it was getting too much with all the anxiety and stuff in my head. There was talk of seven minutes of heaven and so I had no business doing that due to my relationship status. So when my dad came I hugged the host goodbye and thanked her and everything was all good. Then because the host had been rather physical with her boyfriend previously and had just been playing spin the bottle, I thought she was probably gonna make out with me because she was drunk, but she didn’t so I kinda let my guard down. Then I said goodbye to Mary who was my closest friend at the party and so she then asked me to give her a hug, exactly like the host did. However she suddenly started going to my lips and so despite my resistance, I turned my face to the side in an effort to wriggle free from her hold and so she kissed me on the cheek again.
This made me feel incredibly guilty because I felt like I was a bad boyfriend which I am. I feel like I’ve cheated on her and I didn’t intend on it at all. It was my first ever party and the fact that this happened is painful because this one only had around 20 people so it wasn’t that big at all. I told her instantly, the second I got home and she was visibly upset and understandably so because her drunk close friend kissed her boyfriend. She started replying every message with k and I got worried. Is this really cheating? Will she break up with me because of this? I really don’t know.
So that’s the end of the story and I would really appreciate it if you could give me advice on this in the comments or tell me how bad I’ve been. I don’t know but i just need other friends to talk to right now. Thanks for reading and I’ll see you later.