Whaddup Lions and welcome to a rant that probably won’t be entertaining at all. This post is gonna be really unglamorous and I’m not gonna bother making a thumbnail because there’s so many things on my mind right now and I’m literally crumbling. I don’t want any of your pity I literally want to write about this just so that my mind can be at rest and my inner feelings can finally be expressed. In advance I don’t care about any spelling mistakes so I’m not at all sorry.
So recently I’ve noticed that I’ve been feeling extra super alone recently like to the extent of wanting to change my name to the really very Lonely Lion it’s that bad. I’ve not been in a good place recently and I’m literally as the title says done.
What I mean by feeling super duper alone is that I literally have nobody to hang out with in real life. I see posts online of everybody hanging out with their friends and saying how much they have such great times together and love their friends so much. However who have I got? I know I have you guys but literally every single person on this earth has at least somebody to do things in real life with and I’m just me, always sat at home with nobody to call an actual real life friend. Don’t get me wrong you guys are dope and I love each and every but it plays on my mind quite frequently that I don’t hang out with anyone and it’s concerning. I always see people together laughing and having fun whereas I’m just the one who is on his own all the time and I hate not having anyone to do things with.
I don’t call anyone my friend because the people that I’m surrounded by at school are all incredibly negative and they always treat me like a revolving door in the way that they come in and out of my life as they please. Just stay with me and support me or GTFO I’d rather have strength in loyalty than strength in numbers. It may sound as if I’m being spoilt and incredibly ungrateful but put yourself into my shoes: you want to have people to talk to but you don’t want to settle for any less than you deserve, however I haven’t met anyone in the flesh that I can consider as a good friend that will always be on my side no matter what and not only on my side when it suits them.
I keep on trying to write posts yet I cant because I’m so angry inside with myself having an inability to make some fucking friends. I’m not gonna apologise for my language because my friendship rules is the same as my blog, if you don’t like how I am don’t even read my blog. I ain’t stopping nobody from leaving.
I can’t function right now and I feel like everything is going wrong for me. I know whining about it doesn’t achieve anything but I’m only writing this to get out what I’ve had bottled inside for so long and I can’t deal with it anymore it’s driving me crazy. I am done.
BTW: For any of you new followers I’m not normally like this, if you want some better content just read other posts that I’ve written much appreciated thanks.
The Lonely Lion